In the middle of the night I kept reminding myself: “It can’t be harder than A-level maths”. This no-brainer has never let me down before. So why was I still awake at 5am???? Seven hours later I did feel tearful as I sprang across the finishing line – not the tears of relief that I had expected, but emotional that this seemingly impossible mission had been well and truly accomplished, and now what???? My……..